Thoughts About Life

 I was up almost all night with my son, because he is teething and he's constantly in pain. I would get him to sleep and then tip toe out of his room, relief washing over me, thoughts of sleep and dreams would infest my mind and I'd slowly crawl into bed. I'd let my head sink into the fluff of my pillow, feeling my body nestle down into the softness of the bed, every muscle slowly letting the tenseness ease out of my body. I'd close my eyes and feel the sense of peace and quiet around me. I'd hear the deep, steady breathing coming from my husband, then the quietness of the night would be broken by teeny little fusses from my son. After about 10 times of that same scenerio, I finally resigned myself to sitting on the couch, hoping that my body wouldn't get so excited about the possibility of sleep. As I sat on the couch in the wee hours of the morning, I let my head rest on the back of the couch. The house was quiet and my mind began to wander to many different things. 
Life has been complicated lately, between my husband getting out of the Navy, to moving to a new place, to finances being very tight, to my son teething and myself having some physical issues.  There have been other issues to; my own father having some health issue to other family issues that are sensitive and hard to explain.  Life in itself has been overwhelming to me and often times I find myself getting uptight and often in a bad mood. I find myself thinking over and over and over again on how things are going to work out and getting worried over the rent, or the car bill, etc.  I find myself doing what I did last night, letting my mind wander and worry, instead of letting my burdens help me turn to God and realize His faithfulness over and over.
God is always faithful, even in the times when we allow ourselves to be overcome with worry and fear. No matter what happens, no matter what problems we have, He is faithful. The verse that comes to mind is, "Trust in the Lord with all of your heart. Lean not on your own understanding. Acknowledge the Lord in all of your ways and He will make your path straight."
So often I look at our bills and the money we don't have in our account and say, omw, what are we going to do?!!!  That is when I have to stop myself and trust in the Lord. My understanding is human...I can only see what is "fact" in our bank account. Yet through the eyes of faith, I can understand that God is always faithful and He cares for us. He won't let us down. Ever.
When life gets overwhelming, learn to trust in God. It's hard, but it's possible. When you find yourself getting worried, remember, God is in control.

Blessings~